23. Mommy to be. Soon to be college graduate. and aspiring graphic designer/maker.
I know that this blog is meant to be about baby Codizza, but I think
it’s also important to recognize that I’m not only pregnant, but I’m in love.
Cody and I are not married. We have been dating for about 4 months.
We’ve known each other for probably 2 years, but we were not friends.
Now we are having a baby together. I know how this looks, words
like unplanned, unsafe, not smart, foolish come up. But honestly,
that’s not how I feel and that’s not at all what’s happening.
Although it’s been 4 months and I’m still getting to know this person
that helped me create this baby, I feel as though I’ve honestly,
truthfully (grossly) met my soul mate. He has encouraged me to
find love for myself because for a couple of years I suffered from
depression and emotional abuse. He makes me want to be better,
he makes me less stubborn, and he’s always present. I know I’ve
been hard on him because of my vulnerabilities, but he somehow manages
to ignore my crazies.
I feel so much love for this person that it scares me because
sometimes it feels way too good to be true. We are still learning
and growing together, but I think it’s important to recognize
your loved one because of all the people in the world you decided
to be patient for this one, you decided to be present for this one,
you decided to open your heart to this one person. It’s hard
to find this person, but when you do find them you’ll
begin to understand what you’ve found.
Practice patience, love yourself, but be selfless, work together, and
I believe anything really could be possible.
No I’m not married. But I have complete trust and faith that Cody
isn’t going anywhere. I believe he is a good man and he’s in this
as much as I am to see our baby grow. Together we will all grow.
[This picture was taken pre-pregnancy. This is the day Cody asked
me to be his girlfriend. I no longer smoke cigarettes or consume